15th February 2002 00-25 CET
Cook the SPAM

In the last 6 months it seems the amount of spam
hitting my email boxes has expanded at a rate that
is....incredible (I'll swear it's breeding on it's own!).

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Well help is on it's way..............

may I respectfully suggest you take a look at a
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with this problem.....go to

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14th February 2002 23-45 CET


Truth is not something to be believed...

but something to be accepted



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12 February 2002 23-15 CET
Hooking Up
Human Beings, being 'social creatures', often tend to 'group'
or 'bond' in associations/peer groups/relationships out of a
need to assert their 'social characteristics'...or even simply
out of a need to feel they 'belong' somewhere.

In it's most accute form this aspect of human psychology
can be simply a statement of profound loneliness, lack of
self identity or sense of low self worth.

So it is that manifestations of this 'characteristic' become
most noticeable in one of two catagories: amongst teenagers
seeking self identity or amongst the middle aged who have either
lost their sense of self identity or perhaps never even found it.

This trend is easily visible within almost every aspect of social
interraction, be it school, college, University or at the other end
of the scale, religious institutions, political organisations and
at the far extreme, terrorist organisations. Most of these
arenas offer a methodology of social recognition and, consequently,
a degree of self-esteem.

A terminology that is current and that illustrates a 'non too
committed' expression of this socialising/self identity aspect
of the human psyche, is this term 'hooking up'. A term that
relates, more especially , to expressions of sexuality that are
often hyper aroused by an alcohol/drug abuse environment.
Whatever is failing in a society, whatever is most vulnerable
to change...and therefore, hopefully, progress, is always...always
first illuminated by the excesses demonstrated within the youth
of a society. If any hypocrisy exists, and contradiction between
law and practice, morality and expediency - every modern society
can depend upon it's youth to highlight the inherent absurdities
of the position.

That is great...but it also does not come without cost!! Progress,
advancement, social awareness, seems always, throughout the
ages, to have been at the cost of so much misery for the young.
Thankfully it seems that the days when the young were simply
'canon fodder' have now disappeared (with the exception of a
few states in the world where even 'child soldiers' of 8, 9 and 10
years old are indoctrinated to commit horrendous deeds).
The disenchantment with long established institutions and religions,
and the consequent failure of these orgs to be of any relevance,
is a result of them sowing the seeds of their own destruction
within themselves. "You can fool some of the people all of the
time, all of the people some of the time...but never all of the people
all of the time", huh?

Nowadays it seems the cost of the failure of these orgs can be
measured by the rise in 'lost self esteem' within our young. They,
apparently, seek 'arousal expression' in methodologies that are
not only statements of distrust and disbelief in those 'old orgs', but
are also as dangereous and destructive as were the trenches of
the Somme!!

Hiding in 'fundamentalism' is as much an escape as cocaine.
Hiding in irresponsibility (to self) is as lethal as alcohol poisoning.
Hiding in the emotional feel good factor of 'New Age' philosophies
and creeds is as brain damaging as Ectstasy.

If we must 'hook up', if we must really try to find the most amazing
'high' available in this life, if we really seek self identity and
recognition amongst our peer group for who and what we are......
then let's understand one simple, basic, essential law....
we only find it within when we truly find ourselves.

Only when we fully, totally, completely comprehend the
phenomenal beauty of just how amazing each individual is
in the total scheme of 'The Oneness'......only then are we
truly 'hooked up', connected, online, kewl!

Only when we see ourselves, respect our own individual
standards, reflect our self-esteem in our caring for and respect
towards ourself and others...........only then are we truly,
amazingly, astoundingly, on the highest 'high' life can offer...
'hooked up' and super conscious to the 'lovingness' that is
ourself.

Hey, when you love yourself it's easy to love others. Hey,
when you are 'in touch' with your inner self you are always
'in touch' with others. It cannot be otherwise, for to really
know one's self is to know 'The Oneness' of which we are
all a part..interconnected, inter-related, inter-netted!!

Oh, way2go Ross, Danny and JJ :):)

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Saturday 9th February 2002 19-20 hrs CET
I am my own boss
I am yet to discover, in my own perception of standards, which
is the more distressing and painful sight: that of a young person
seemingly bent on self-destruction or that of an old person whose
body rebelliously imposes the burdens of a prisoner upon the mind
and ceases to be any longer at the command of the will.

In the former case it is all too easy too classify the beginnings
of destructive addictions as being simply youthful experimentation.
Mood or mind altering substances such as alcohol, narcotics and such
seem to be such an established aspect of society that youthfulness
cannot be held entirely responsible for an apparent 'free will decision'
to indulge in them. In this there is nothing new, generation to generation
falls for the same salesmanship. Even large scale education has not eased
this problem: in 'achievement related societies' education has been turned
into a competition sport...with all the attendant pressures, rewards and
sponshorships that go with it.

In the latter case the results of over indulgence in what was the
previously- and still regrettably- accepted norm for addiction, alcohol,
extracts a horrendous toll in suffering - from ulcerated and unusable legs
to a brain that is constantly bombarded with bombshells of haemmorrages
or small clots. The ability to tolerate large quantities is not an achievement,
but a loss, huh?

Yesterday I was reading of alcohol poisoning - the result of home
made spirit sold to teenagers by a much older person - in two 13 year
olds. I have seen, and continue to see many times, the long term effects
of alcohol poisoning - caused by uncontrollable over-indulgence - in older
people.

There is also a 'spiritual addiction' as I call it. It is in the form of uncontrolled
reliance, without test and often without knowledge, on traditions and
'fundamentalist standpoints'.

So, where are we going with this diatribe?

To a simple place... a place that goes by the name of 'self-responsibility'

We have chosen to come into this life, this experiencing reality. So, why, therefore,
do so many choose to opt out of the reality of the experiencing and hide from
it within mood altering methodologies?

It kind of defeats the object of coming here in the first place, don't it???

You know...you know the truth of this. You know it inside. I cannot tell
it to you....for you know what I know and vice versa.

What we can, however, do...as bearers of 'the lovingness'..is remind each
other. Not from a position of superiority or elitism, or even ego, but simply
from the point of view that we are all one.... for true lovingness makes it's
home in the halls of humility.

"a true disciple knows another's pain as his own"



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Wednesday 6th February 2002 21-00 CET
Digestion
Now I am starting to get more into my 'normal' routines
after my travels and the catching up that an absence of a
few weeks creates. This is not a complaint, simply an
observation, for travelling (especially when it permits
the making of new friends) is a marvellous thing to do.

It's also nice to come back home :) To find the stillness
again. To be in the quietness again. To visit places like
New Delhi or airports like Charles de Gaulle in Paris is
exciting, challenging and stimulating.

That which is most meaningful is often seen clearer at a
distance. Transcendental meditation is founded on this
principle (as opposed to intramundane meditation). Rising
above the normality of existing and looking down upon it
allows for much more of the beauty of the lovingness to
be observed than is usual from a more involved stance.

Being in the quietness of my home, however, allows time
for all the marvellous experiences, all the incredible moments
with new people, to be absorbed and integrated in a manner
that the noise and energy of large cities hardly permits. For
I can view these experiences 'from a distance' and see the wonder
of them all.

Good food should never be eaten in a hurry, so it is with
good life experiences. They need to be savoured, the subleties
and nuances tasted in the soul. Only then can their true flavour,
the richness of their quality, be adequately discerned.

Fast food is ok...and I quite like burgers, hehehehe......but a meal
taken in a meditative manner, absorbed by and given attention to
with the whole person,that's a whole different type of enjoyment.

Loving. Friendship. Caring...these are meals of experiencing that
require time........require stillness from the hectic daily activities.
Only then can the full miracle, the full extraordinary qualities of
these seemingly ordinary things...be fully digested in all their
sumptuousness.

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Saturday 2nd February 2002 21-30 cet
Safe return
Back from my travels! India, a most fascinating place. It is the home
of some truly extraordinary people. Warm, friendly, open and with a unique
ability to somehow encourage a higher manifestation of spirituality within
one's self.
Why this should be I am not entirely certain, but I believe there is a
fundamental and very ancient spiritual base within the society. Generally
speaking there always seems to be an atmosphere which is encouraging
to the best in a person. Of course, getting off the plane presents one with the
usual outside the terminal taxi cab hassles that are the hallmark of international
travel amost anywhere in the world. That aside, India has the amazing ability
to always 'present a willing helper' whenever one is needed and most normally
simply as a gesture of human caring without the requirement for payment.

It's an easy place to make new friends, good friends, respectful friends (if you are
also respectful!) and I have made so many new ones on this trip also.

So, to any of them who might happen to read this blog......my heartfelt thanks for
a wonderful trip, for innumerable kindnesses, for unconditional friendship and the
caring that accompanies it. From people who woke in the middle of the night to
wish me 'Bon Voyage', from a man who missed three buses in order to ensure we
would catch ours, for staff at guest lodges and hotels whose friendliness made
us feel like one of the family, for the staff and children at Sinai Orphanage who
blessed us with so many blessings.......... fellow travellers on trains whose
pleasurable company graced our journey. So many, so many beautiful
memories of wonderful people.
It was like an orchard in Autumn, ripe with fruits of lovingness and every place
the trees of life hanging heavy with such an abundance of fruits.

It is said that India is a poor country and by some economic measures
that is possibly true..........but if the character, conscientiousness and
humanity of a people is counted into such an equation, India overflows
with richness.

In The Oneness - no matter where we are - lovingness surrounds us
and embraces us, if we are willing to find the extraordinary in the
ordinary. In India it is so easy, so very easy, to find :):)

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1st January 200...?...2 23-30 CET
Tempus fugits..sometimes
There are times in life when the simple, straightforward
expressions of togetherness, belonging, are incredibly
joyful celebrations of what life is actually about.

Christmas and New Year are such times for us in the west.

There is time for unpacking gifts, time for sharing with family
and friends..time......time to sit in quiet contemplation of
celebrations past, of persons lovingly remembered that no
longer share the physical present with us.

In an apparent forest isolation that is my present life
circumstance...a scenario that I think must have astounded
my friends and family...I am so richly blessed with the
opportunities to 'take time'...to taste the luxury of every
memory of being loved...by so many over such a long period.

So now I always follow a little 'tradition' on New Year's Eve.
I come in through the front door of the house bringing with
me the *New Year* and welcoming it to our home...inviting
peace and increasing self-knowledge to accompany it as
welcome guests. Then I go out through the back door of the
house, letting out the 'old year', but not before I have thanked
it for all the blessings it brought and for all the lovingness it gave.

There is never a year that does not come with blessings. Never
a year that has come without it's close companion..lovingness.
Never a year that I am not deeply thankful that I travelled into
this experiencing existence called life and came into a place where
I was so greatly blessed with the lovingness expressing through
a wonderful..and large...family.

The Aunts, Uncles, cousins, nephews, nieces, brother, sisters in law,
my Mother, my Father...my parents-in-law, my wife...all who through
their experiencing allowed me to express who I am....and despite that,
or just maybe because of that, were still able to love me.

I do not think that any of them taught me 'love'......but I am so very
sure that they all helped me to understand the importance of
sharing 'love'.

For a life that nearly did not exist at all.....my life has been so
profoundly, immeasurably, incredibly---even enigmatically..
illuminated by the sunbeams of lovingness.

I do so hope yours has too.

It's a new day, a New Year.............another opportunity to
find the blessings, count them, bathe in them, be absorbed
by them...shine with them :):)

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31st December 2001 23-00 CET
Light the candle :)

"And I said to the man who stood
at the gate of the year
'Give me a light that I may tread
safely into the unknown'
And he replied
'Go out into the darkness
and put your hand into the hand of God
That shall be to you better than light
and safer than a known way' "
(M.Louisa Hoskins)


"This little light of mine
I'm going to let it shine"
Is a pretty old gospel spiritual. But a good one.
It contains within it a sparkling gem of truth.

We, as individual aspects of 'The Oneness',
individual expressions of infinite, unconditional
Love....we also are resplendant beams not simply
reflecting but being an integral part of the whole.

When we let our light shine, the true inner light
with which we come into this expression of
experiencing that we call life, when we do this...
we are truly
"In the Oneness"

We are not lost in anonymity, nor absorbed
by a mass....
we are sparkling raindrops in a brilliant rainbow
we are laughter, happiness,
joy expressed as lovingness.

In wishing you a Happy New Year - a year filled
with wonderful experiences of the uncountable
blessings that surround you....in wishing you this..
I hope you will permit your light to shine..
within and without.

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28th December 2001 13-10 CET
Lemmings or Gods?
One of life's greatest spiritual challenges is to try and show love,
tolerance, respect even to those who do not show it to others.

If we fail to do this are we not the same?

If we allow anger and hatred to rule our thoughts have we not
also become terrorists? Have we not also become that which
we disliked in the other?

It may well be that humanity will seek to dash headlong, like
lemmings, over the cliff of rationality and lovingness and into
the chasm of self destruction.....hmmm.. but, somehow, I do not
feel so.

"Throughout history there have been tyrants and they seem
to conquer and rule. But history shows they always, always fall.
Remember that when you doubt the way of Love. Always."

As has been seen In America with the proposals by the
Attorney General to change the balance of legality/principle
in respect of courts/trials for terrorists...when we are faced
with horrendous insult and injury to that which we hold
precious, in what way do we preserve the preciousness
by sacrificing it in the name of expediency?

It is in the moment of being 'attacked' that we define ourselves,
our principles, our lovingness. When that which is the basis of
our civilisation comes under gruesome challenge...that is the
moment when we most have the opportunity to place into
this reality those spiritual concepts.

Assaulted by a ceaseless barrage of claim and counter claim,
outrage and horror, it is easy to revert to 'old habits of
warfare'.

It has been well said that the greatest violence is poverty.
In what way, therefore, does the use of resource to wage
war enrich the ordinary people? Rather it performs
'the violence of poverty' against those very persons
it is claimed that war will protect. Ha! What a myth!
What a fairy tale!

Perhaps if we had spent more time, energy and resource
caring for each other, sharing with each other...perhaps
the malaria-like breeding grounds of injustice, inequality,
and deprivation would not have given birth to a plague
of terrorism.

It has also been said that the best form of defence is attack.

I say the best form of attack is compassion! This holds
the highest potential for the realisation of a fair, just and
enriched world. Rather than expending energy destroying,
is it really...really..beyond our capability to expend it in creating?

Is it not clear to all by now...that if we do not share then our
aspirations to justice, equality, freedom are simply dust
blown in a wind of chance?

And what is it I would have us share? Possessions? Hah!
We always do after we are dead, huh? Principles? Hah!
Such sharing has littered history with the bones of the innocent.
Freedom? Hah! Freedom is not a dream nor an idealogy. Freedom
is the song of a loving heart that it cannot resist singing.

There is only one thing we have. Only one thing with which we
come into this life and leave this life. There is only one thing
that holds us in this creativity.......and one thing that holds
us in eternity.....
Only one thing we can claim as our own....and only then when
we give it away......

UNconditional LOVE.

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24th December 2001 01-45 am
Absent
The lake just outside, maybe 50 metres from my home, is over
30 kilometres long. Today spasmodic shafts of sunlight
sparkled from the fast forming ice, reflected onto
nearby pine trees and shimmered on the black/white patterned
trunks of the noble Birch trees.
Nature's team of artists have been busy pointilising white
highlights on all the trees and bushes and the carpetting
team have been doing their thing with sublty textured
white over the land itself.
In short...it looks like we are in for one of those good
old yesteryear traditional white Christmases.
I've written and sent the cards cards..still have a few
precious ones to send over email....and followed
my personal tradition of playing Handel's Messiah as
well as some of the Christmas 'tunes' we all like to hear.
I am especially fortunate to possess a cassette of an
incredible Norwegian choir, a boys and mens choir, called
Solvguttene (The Silver Boys) who render some of the very
special Scandinavian Christmas melodies with a purity of sound
and precision of co-ordination that...well, frankly, brings tears
to the eyes.
Outside our home I have, for the past 2 years, erected a 1 metre
diameter 'Christmas Star' composed of Christmas lights.I understand
it is visible from many kilometres away, across and down the lake.
I usually decorate inside with hanging decorations, some of which I
have had for over 30 years. These kind of connect me to my past, to
my life in England and all those incredible Christmases that shower my
memory more thickly than any snowfalls can.
So far, however, I have not been able to find the motivation to
erect the star or install any decorations.
In my small, perhaps insignificant, way I am mindful of a need
to remember all those who will not be able to share this Christmas
with a loved one's presence, someone who has now departed this life.
I especially feel this to be, as it were, highlighted by the events of
September 11th. This first year of the new millenium has been
a unique year for all of mankind. It is a year that we can never forget
and there are many, many, many whose existence and presence
cannot be forgotten.
The unfolding of this tragedy in all it's graphic detail through
the instantaneous media now available to us, has located all
of us into the middle of an enormous tragedy in a way that
perhaps we have never seen or known before.
So, I feel my lights should not go up this year as a token of
a shared grief. My wife and I will probably light some candles
in the snow outside, as we have done previously...though this
time I shall light mine with a greater sense of commemoration.
Christmas is a time for family, for sweet memories of friends
and remembrances of people we have loved...and still love
though they are no longer in our physical presence.

So, my "Christmas lights" will be absent as a token of the 'unseen
presence'. It is a small token. It is a sincere token.

Sometimes it is only when something appears to be absent in our
reality that it is really present in our awareness.


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11th December 2001 14-30 CET
Ersatz (it's a looong one, hehehe)
It is a strange paradox, is it not, that the increased communications
and material wealth of the last century - and especially the last decades
- seems to have produced a remarkable irony? Namely, plagues of loneliness,
emptiness, boredom, disatisfaction with life. There is a 'kick-conditioned
mentality' around that is not simply related to the experimentation
of youth.One of the saddest aspects of all of this is the apparent
disillusionment leading to self destructive excesses in young people.

I am simply observing, there is neither criticism nor praise in my
observations... I hope :):)

Some persons strive to gather money, although they never use it, and
in the process lose their friends, family, even their very self. Eventually
dwelling in a paranoia palace. Amazingly this process, though meant
to obtain desired 'security' produces the absolute opposite...so many
insecurities.

Some persons eat, eat, eat. They are not hungry, but they eat. Even
though they probably know they are damaging their long term health
prospects they can't resist eating. Filling themselves from the outside
in the hope of filling a non-physical emptiness inside.

Some persons seek thrill, stimulus, excitement in a never ending
cycle of neuron stimulation, fearing within the silences as though
the silence meant death. 'Living life to the full' is an oft used phrase
but surely that is dependant upon one's definition of life, huh? How often
we hear this term 'I'm bored', like it's up to someone else, or something
else, to create something in your life for you? Hmmm.....

Some persons seek knowledge of spiritual things somehow believing
that to have this knowledge is also to have the wisdom to use it. So
they study, they read, they input the life experiences of as many
others as they can....then they seek to mimic someone else's
individualised experience whilst only comprehending a very small
part of it - for how can we experience as another has experienced
unless we have lived their life? All is individual.There may be common
threads but they weave individual tapestries, huh?

And loving experiences. Some persons gather up 'love experiences' like
it's the only way they can feel they exist at all. Being wanted, being
needed seem to be such high priorities....and the more these aspects
fail to deliver the 'inner fulfillment' the more they chase after yet newer
experiences of 'being loved'. It's like they have to feel as though they
'belong' somewhere and if they can't feel that it creates depression
(a means of reorientating one's acceptance, or otherwise, of a life
circumstance), unhappiness, discontent...and sometimes much worse
than this.

Always this search outside of ourselves for something that can never be
inside...unless and until we are willing to accept that it is already there,
huh? HUH?

Seeking these things outside of ourself is a substitute, it's ersatz, it's
a compensation for not having accepted, realised, become aware that
we already have all of these things inside us.

Question: Can your loneliness fill another's loneliness?
Question: Can an empty glass fill another empty glass?
Question: Can your sense of being unwanted fill another persons want?
Question: If you cannot love yourself, how can you expect that someone
else can love you? Is that not an unfair and unrealistic demand
upon another?
Question: If you do love yourself, if you really know who and what you are,
is not your primary motivation to give out 'the lovingness' rather
than to concern yourself with receiving from another? Is not this
the way of Christ, of the Bhudda, the Dalai Lama, Gandhi and others
we regard as 'spiritual greats' that have walked the earth?
Question: If you lack 'self respect' how can you expect others to respect you?
Question: If you make yourself less than you are, why be surprised when
others treat you as less?
Question: why do you seek from the outside an awareness that can only
be found on the inside?

As I have previously written in this blog, all are equal in the realm of the
'lovingness'. There are no higher and no lower, no caste system, no leader/
follower, we all arrive in this reality equal in a spiritual sense. We may have
differing agendas of experiencing but...and it's a very big BUT.....in the
realm of 'the Oneness' no-one is superior or inferior.

Oh, in this experiencing reality called life, in some material
senses it may be that there appears to be inequality....in some emotional
senses it may appear there is inequality...but look again. Are the wealthy
truly happy and fulfilled? Is there really a possibility of happiness that is
not a personal perception or a personal realisation?

How can it be that so many that have achieved 'material success' are still
unfulfilled? Or so many that have masses of 'friends or acquaintances' still
feel lonely? Or so many who have sought love from another still feel
unloved or disrespected?

Surely it is clear: if it doesn't come from within yourself, it cannot
come from outside - for even if it did come from outside, if you did not
already have it within you could never recognise the visitor.

So, a little suggestion..the 'Churchill methodology'. Winston Churchill
used to make a list...all the good things on one side...all the bad things
on the other (you have your own definitions of what's good and bad, huh?).
Try it yourself...find some quietness...create some stillness in your
busy world....and simply sit and list all the attributes about yourself
that you consider good, worthwhile.....then list all the things you consider
'ungood' (ungood is a way of saying not good that also implies the power
to change it..to undo it)..

Important note here - list those things which are your own perception of
yourself, not what or who others think you are (they have their own
reasons for projecting their own problems onto you, huh?).

When you have finished your list...simply ask yourself..is this really
me as I see myself? Then ask...would I love me if I were someone
else?

Then ask yourself...do I love me?

(If you really got trouble with your list, send me a copy..... we'll
work with it together if you wish. Your choice, huh?)

Now...know this...understand this...be fully, fully aware of this...
no matter who or what you think you are......
there is no way, no way, that you are not loved unconditionally
within the 'lovingness of the Oneness'. (and for those with a negative
view of themselves please note the grammatical double negative in the
preceeding sentence..it's a way to stress that the lovingness accepts
us as we are...not as some conceptualisation would like us to be).

Byron Katey, in her 'The Work' personal self realisation system
said a beautiful wonderful thing one time. She said " When you walk
into a room, know that everyone loves you...they're just not all
aware of it yet."

But then, why should they be...when you are not aware of how
fantastic a person you are in the sight of the 'Oneness' or even
in your own view of yourself, huh?

Nor is this a call to ego inspired arrogance, for in the
'balancing of the lovingness' an amazing thing happens...
the more you can be aware of how magnificent you are..
the more aware you become of the magnificence of another also.
The more aware you are of yourself, the more aware you are of others.

............................
Postscript in answer to an email:
It is my need to write this blog, my expression of my awareness.
This need have nothing to do with you. I can tell you nothing
you do not already know..spiritually. If there is anything in
these writings that 'rings a bell' in your spirit..the bell was already
within you to be rung, huh? Nor will you take in any aspect
of another's experiencing that is not already a paraphrasing of your
own awareness. We have nothing to learn....only to be aware of
what we already have inside.
Pranam :):)

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Tuesday 11th December 2001 02-00 CET
Suddenly's
Go on, admit it, it's happened to you :) There you are in the middle
of a conversation with someone and...suddenly...out come some
words from your brain and mouth and you can see that the other
person is...hmmm..astounded?...hmmm..impressed?

You've had this happen, haven't you?

Only afterwards , when you think back on it, are you left with the
feeling "where did I get that from?. Did I really say that?". It's
even more amazing if you happen to be discussing 'spiritual
things', huh? Gems fall out of our consciosness sometimes
like it's raining wisdom and blessings...and we can't quite
figure out how that came to be in our mind/brain/consciousness
in the first place.

More often than not it's such a simple statement as well. Simple
to say but incredibly profound. I look at these blogs I write, talking
to this imaginary readership (I think there's probably 3 or 4 peeps
that occasionally read them, hehehe), and I find it difficult to really
believe I wrote them. I mean, I know I've typed them. I know I've 'blogged'
them...I am just not so sure where they really came from in the
first place. I've not exactly read a mountain of books, attended
a mass of seminars or satsangs, chased around eastern or westen
'centres of spirituality'...I mean I've never been to Risikesh or stuff
like that.

Oh, I've perhaps been to a bit more than Mr. Average...but even so
there's stuff here that I don't recognise from anywhere else....and
certainly don't recognise from within myself.

Now here's an interesting anomaly: when we fall in love we seem
to become a whole new person, huh? We grow in dimensions
that we never knew were possible. Love just simply seems to bring
out the best in us...a best we hardly seemed aware was there.
It's usually nothing like the fantasy we had, or the dream we
hoped. It's like there was this cocoon of self that suddenly
explodes into a butterfly of self-awareness.

Now, if the whole 'love/loving' experience of human relationships
can do this much for us....what do you think the unlimited,
unconditional lovingness of the 'Oneness' does for us... even
when we aren't conscious of it happening ?

I was chatting yesterday during a travelled visit...and out came
"Give out love and you get masses of love back..it's the
universal law. It's the Oneness". Ok, that I've heard before in
some form or another. What I got back though was a little
surprising. The other person said "you really know that, don't
you?" I just answered, like breathing, as naturally as breathing,
"Yes, I do."

Suddenly, like a magnificent sunrise, like a beautiful deep blue
butterfly fluttering to a gentle landing on the end of my nose----
suddenly, it hit me..."Yes, I do". That's exactly how I felt when I
said it..I did - do - know it, because I've experienced it.

So have you ! At first, because we can't rationalise it, control it
or make it do what we 'think' we want to do...we dismiss it.We
ignore it. We try to pretend it didn't really happen whilst all the time
knowing it WAS a part of our experiencing. So we keep denying
it until we almost believe our own denials....then...
suddenly......
it happens again, huh? hehehehehehehe
We say something, do something..even just think something....
and we can't understand where this came from.

Until...suddenly....we know.

The extraordinary hides in the ordinary.
We become 'extraordinary' when we are willing to see it :):)

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6th December 2001 15-00 hrs CET
Unwelcome guests?
When 'surprise attacked' by apparently overwhelming horror
or threat it is normal for most of us to revert to the amygdala
'fight or flight' mechanism.This mechanism, as I understand it,
is a kind of 'intuitive library' genetically coded through the
ages of mankind.

The raised hairs on the back of the neck, the heightened
'awareness', the increased adrenalin-fuelled metabolism
all conspire to tell us that 'fear' has entered our
self-preservation instinct programme and become
self-operational.

It comes as a welcome guest ,complete, hopefully, with an
overnight bag. It offers a degree of security and sense of
pre-warned stability. It is not an army, but has control of one.

However, when fear enters our domain carrying a load of
luggage/suitcases then we have reason to fear fear itself.

For fear likes luxury. It likes to impress us with the trappings
of it's power.We can soon be enchanted by such power, especailly
if our own egos crave such power ourselves. It enjoys travelling
with an absolute mass of suitcases and a large entourage of staff.
In this scenario fear brings with it hatred, prejudice, intolerance..
main staff members. Why, it even brings it's own gardener complete
with a gruesome chain saw with which it 'prunes' the roots of our logic,
our morality, our sense of justice and freedom....until the spiritual
tree of 'the self' trembles precariously in a wind of terror-inspired
emotion.

Notice the cleverness of the tactic. Don't attack the trunk of the tree
(well, unless you're a beaver who is especially equipped for that, huh?)
for that is hard to do unobserved. Rather seek the roots that hold
the mighty form aloft. Little by little the roots break away and when
they are all but totally gone...then we are hostage, completely, to fear as
our form trembles in the storms that threaten our very existence.

This is, essentially, the process of indoctrination. In terms of 'religious
or political conversion' it is very adequately documented......increase the
threat of annihilation, increase the awareness of mortality and pain, increase
the definitions of 'sin/guilt'...disorientate the subject by deprivation techniques
(whether physical, psychological or both) until an abreactive point
is reached (a point of fear inspired nervous collapse)...and then, bingo!
The subject rejects those 'root standards' that have been the cause
of all this 'terror'...and accepts a new codus that promises relief, peace
and heavenly tranquility based upon adherence to the new codus. Better
to fly in the clouds of illusion than tremble in the reality...huh?

Now, you, the individual have ceased to be that..an individual. You have
become a 'groupie', a 'convert', a 'follower', etc.etc. You conform
to a doctrine of 'safety in numbers'.

All out of the opposite to Love...fear! Worst of all, you have sacrificed
self respect in the process and, accordingly, afford no others respect.

It is not a rule, nor a codus, nor a pre-condition to 'being in the lovingness
of the Oneness' that you, YOU, cease to be what you have been created to
be...........an UNconditionally loved individualised aspect of the 'Oneness'.

In the final analysis this is where fear loses the battle, the war. For fear
has nothing in it's armoury with which it can fight the supremacy of
Love.

When unwelcome guests overstay their 'welcome'.....you have a
wonderful opportunity to embrace them 'in the lovingness'. By being
fully your true spiritual self you make a friend of an enemy, an enemy
that first visited posing as a friend. By showing love in the face of hatred,
Love in the face of prejudice, Love in the face of intolerance... we
absorb those energies and transmute them.

For we all invite into our 'spirit' that which is necessary for us to
experience the fullest possible experiencing of who we truly are.
Rooted in the 'Oneness' we blossom with lovingness.

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Sunday 2nd December 2001 23-30 CET
Chaos
We do so love to be organised, plan things out, schedule our lives.
It reassures us to feel that we 'are in control'. That's fair enough,
in many ways...especially spiritually...we are in control. In reality,
(well in this reality we call 'the life experience'), even when we
are surrounded by chaos...when life seems to bear down upon us
with a million problems...when our emotions are torn and
bleeding from the sheer stress of 'trying to hang in there'..we
are far more in control than we can consciously acknowledge.

The 'chaos' is a means of experiencing, huh?

So let's just examine this 'chaos' for a moment or two.
Generally speaking 'chaos' is the pre-condition to creativity.
If an artist sees only one image on a canvas, if a musician
only hears one tune in his/her head, if we only can perceive
one scenario in our conscious state....our subconscious
quickly alerts us to a mass of other possibilities - in dreams,
day-dreams, angst, and a lot of other methodologies.

Soon our 'single minded perception' fragments under a
burden of 'chaotic conceptualities'. The underlying scenario,
the deep inner awareness, is fairly simple actually. We are
challenged by a life circumstance to accept a situation which
we find unacceptable. That's the opening of the door for
the force of chaos to enter in. Yet, go a little deeper and
you soon find that most, if not all, of the chaos is
'self generated'.

You see, I am a committed believer in the concept that,
at least on a personal life level, a problem is simply a
solution awaiting it's time of birth. We set our sub-conscious
a problem and it's starts - like some super-computer generating
terrabytes of data - permutating possibilities. Indeed, most of
this 'chaotic broadbanded activity' is actually occurring before
we have consciously recognised any problem. By the time
we start acknowledging a problem consciously, the creative
chaos is already well advanced within us. It's like our
sub-c was aware of a potential problem long before we
were consciously aware of it, huh?

Chaos is the pre-condition for creativity! Creativity is our
natural 'in the Oneness' state. We all are incredibly productive
'creation machines'. We are producing, all the time and in
in amazing ways, scenarios that enable our wider experiencing
of the: realisation of concepts : the sensing of materialised
experiencing : methodologies by which we define who we are
and thus enable ourselves to see ourselves - know who and
what we are.

'Chaos' is the raw material of creativity. 'Chaos' is the 'mud of
materialisation'. 'Chaos' - mental, emotional, psychological,-
is the first indicator that we are busy creating!!!!

Chaos is not a curse.....it is THE blessing :):)

So let's not get swept away by the storms of 'chaos' that
we seem to observe occurring within us as we struggle to
find a methodology of 'acceptance' of a specific life scenario.
Simply trust the process...trust your own innermost motivations.
Trust that you only have a 'problem' because you are a 'spiritual
entity that is seeking to experience concepts- concepts you already
knew before you came into this life's walk - in a material environment.
..you are seeking to be what you know you are...and to experience the
being instead of just the knowing.'

Next time you feel pressured...stressed....uncomfortable with a life
scenario....lacking in self confidence........
trust the chaotic feelings that are whirling around inside of you.
That is a wind of creative change that will manifest itself in a
scenario that will permit you to modify, adjust to, moderate or
accept that circumstance which first created the awareness
of a problem within you. We can 'create a way out of any
situation'......huh?

Chaos gives birth to creativity: through that creativity we define
ourselves. Problems are simply solutions awaiting their time of birth.
If we can perceive a problem consciously, we are already working with
it subconsciously and spiritually. We must be, or we couldn't perceive it.
You don't have a problem unless and until you recognise you have a
problem, huh? The methodolgies for resolving problems are as
innumerable as raindrops...and like snowflakes, each one is
individual.

"Inner chaos" is not an enemy...rather it is a welcome and precious
friend. When you cannot find chaos inside anymore, you have
ceased to be willing to experiment with the 'life experiencing'.

The chaos is simply a mechanism for allowing you to be you...
and to know yourself better :):)


Hmmm..and on a totally different subject...I am told that the
human body is over 80% water...so how come we can stand up?
Or how come, when we go swimming,...............heehehehehehe :)

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Friday 30th November 2001 23-00 CET
Something
There are many people who like to believe, perhaps need to
believe, that one has to be in a particularly devout, meditative
or prayerful frame of mind in order to 'tune in' to the 'energy
flows'. As I keep observing, we are all individual aspects of
the 'Oneness' and therefore it is right that we each have our
own chosen methodology for expressing and impressing
the 'flow of lovingness'.

It takes billions of refracting raindrops to make a rainbow, huh?
Each one playing it's part in the magnificent whole.

These things being so it is not surprising that many folks look
to a 'spiritual leader' ( a preacher, Guru, priest, etc.) for
guidance - it is each person's individual 'tradition', desire and need
that dictates the manner of the walk.No walk is greater or lesser
than another - just as nor raindrop in the rainbow is greater or
lesser than another, huh?

Yet, it must also be observed, that there is a need, a requirement,
to try and be as open minded - open-souled - as possible. If we are
not we run the danger of missing out on so much beauty, so many
symbols of lovingness, by proceeding with simply a narrow view
of the interaction of the 'Oneness'.

So it is that clarification can come in many disguises: from
the actions of a simple, humble person in their open-hearted
willingness to express the 'lovingness'... to even the actions,
words and thoughts of the great and mighty.

Be we high or be we low, all we need is love...all we have
is love. In the final analysis, Love is all there is.

That seems to be the continuous core message throughout
history. Love, love, love.

The manifestations of love are manifestations of the 'Oneness'.
The concept is realised - real-ised - in this life experiencing.
It is given form, sensitised, refined, moderated and modulated
in every aspect of the 'cosmos'. Nor does it ever end, it is
a fully recyclable condition. Has there ever been anyone
you have loved and still do not love? A family member?
A friend? Even your first 'being in love' experience as a
teenager - you still remember it clearly, it always leaves
a profound imprint, huh? For the continuance of love is no
more and no less an affirmation of yourself, a statement of who
you are . And wasn't it...isn't it...an amazing
incredible, mind-blowing experience..this awareness of the
potential within ourselves for the energy of the 'lovingness'
to permeate our existence?

In the knowledge that love never ever ever ends, we therefore
never lose anyone. Though, like the winter's snow, the body
may transform and recycle - the dust blow in new life energy
breezes, or grow the roots of new flowers and trees - the
'love energy' which surrounded the dust and which we call
'our self' is, always has been, always will be, an aspect
of the infinite lovingness I call the 'Oneness'. (This is not
an easy recognition for those who seemed determined to
believe in hells, damnations, devils...and stuff like that, huh?)

The 'Oneness' - super consciousness if you prefer that
terminology - God if you prefer that terminology - the
'Oneness' is everything and nothing. The supreme 'Am,
Am not' (both must exist for there to be a relativity).

Whether 'I am' or 'Am not' visible in the dusted form
that my spirit energy holds as my body..is irrelevant
to my spiritual existence. It is, however, relevant, to
my experiencing within this life's realities and to the
experiencing of those with whom I am able to share
my 'lovingness' - the lovingness that travels through me.

So, today, we say goodbye to the dust that was
formed within the loving spiritual energies of a
truly wonderfully 'ordinary' person whose life demonstrated
my oft repeated 'mantra' that it is in the ordinary that the
extra-ordinary is found. A peace loving
person whose energies constructed melodies that
sang in the hearts of millions and millions and millions
of us. Melodies that enriched our life experiencing.

But, perhaps we shall find...as we find to be a truism
about any we have ever loved...or who have loved us..
they never fully leave us.

Something in the way.....'he walked'.

See you... again.... George Harrison. Thanks for 'walking' with
us and sharing yourself with us. Thanks for all the melodies
you created in our life experiencings.


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Thursday 29th November 2001 14-00 CET
Humanenting
I guess just about anyone that's ever been 'in love' knows the
problem of 'being in love with someone who doesn't love you'
World literature is littered with autumn-like carpets of
'unrequited love leaves'. Reading some of these, or watching
the movie versions, gives one mixed sensations of pity,
anger, confusion and, if you are fortunate never to have
first hand experience yourself, amazement and even amusement
at the absurdity of it.

One could reasonably assume, therefore, that the human race
would, by now, have learnt that love is not something that
'can be manipulated or forced'. No disciplined army training
type of thing, no indoctrination, brain-washing, legal
framework or social norm can cause a person to love another.
It just happens. It is there or not there.

With all this human history screaming it's message through
the ages it is all the more amazing that we continue to react towards
'the Oneness' as though 'the Oneness' were composed of the
same - or similar - attributes as we humans. We keep 'inventing'
human characteristics for 'the Oneness'. I call this
'humanenting'.

Yet, with unbelievable regularity and repetition, leaders and
'opinion-influencers' of seemingly all the 'major religions' keep
pushing the same message......"do this, do that, do the other,
do not do this, do not do that, do not do the other.- Dress like this,
don't dress like that. Eat this, don't eat that. Think this don't think that"
and so on and so on and so on and so on and so on.......etc.

In some areas of the world this 'humanenting' actually KILLS people.
It's intolerance breeds hatred/jealousy/envy. It's intolerance breeds
prejudice (40 million diagnosed/estimated to suffer from HIV/Aids...
and religions can be prejudiced about it??? It's unbelievable! In the
face of the biggest threat to the continuance of the species....
religious prejudice rules,OK???)

Humanenting gives rise to events like the WTC tragedy - for such is the
'lack of faith' that some actually believe it is their 'God given duty'
to protect God; that is to say to 'control God or perceptions of
God to suit their own private power agendas'. They then carry out
this 'agenda' enthused by the absolute opposite of love - hatred,
daring to call their actions 'the work of the faithful'. Oh, how we
have such a capacity for justification of our every non-loving
manifestation.

UNCONDITIONAL love means exactly what it says. It does not
rely on humanenting - human perceptions of what unlimited,
unrestricted,unrewarded, unrecognised,unintelligible love
actually is.

The 'lovingness' of the 'Oneness' requires neither your obedience,
recognition, or acceptance. If you think otherwise then you
delude yourself. You 'humanent'. The 'Oneness' is Unconditional
Love....and by His/Her/It's own definition can be nothing else.

This 'lovingness' is in no way dependent upon you -no action you
take (or don't take), no worship you offer (or don't offer), no
sacrifice you make (or don't make...remember Abraham?), no
code of living you have (or don't have), etc.etc..... can be used
as a tool to 'bribe' the lovingness of the 'Oneness'.

The 'Oneness' requires you only to be the best 'loving YOU' you
can be,and how can you be otherwise in the final analysis? For the
'end game' is simple...from love you came into this reality and to
love you shall return..into the fullest reality of the 'lovingness'
The individuality of your existence is not a curse (except to
control structured conformity), it is the blossoming of the
flower of 'lovingness' - for your 'individuality is, and always has
been and always will be, an aspecting of the 'lovingness' of the
'Oneness'.

It is a fact of spiritual life!!!! The unconditionality of the 'lovingness'

Unrequited love is the state of loving another who does not love
you back. It's a 'human condition'......it's not a condition of
the 'lovingness' of the 'Oneness'.

You are loved. You will always be loved. Always and in
all ways.

The 'Oneness' does not need revenge, judgement, devils, hells,
rejections, excommunications, or any of that stuff. If you think
that it does, then you 'humanent'.

The great joy of love is when one discovers one's own
capacity for it and that one can also give it unconditionally.
Does the apple blossom choose who may see it's incredible
form and beauty - or who may sense it's delicate perfume?
Are you not more than an apple blossom petal?
When one discovers the wonder, the incredible beauty
of the power of unconditional LOVE, a power that changes
one's perception of this life's experiencing...you discover a
power that changes your perception of who you really are :):)
In that moment your awareness, your consciousness, of who
you really are expands exponentially into the fullness of
'the lovingness', you become a 'self recognised aspect'
of the 'Oneness'. An integral and inseperable aspect.

It is not something to be studied. It is not something to
be learnt. It is not something to be prayed about or
meditated upon. It's not a catechism or ritual or discipline.
It is just something to be done, to be experienced.
We all come into this life experience knowing all there
is to know, spiritually, about unconditional love.
Then we are taught..and learn..about conditional love.
When you become aware that most of your 'thoughts'
are other people's 'thoughts' that have been 'injected
into you'.....then you start to want to be yourself!
The real 'self', the individual self that is an aspect
of 'the Oneness'. The self that simply desires to materialise
in this 'experiencing reality we call life', every possible
aspect of unconditional love.

Do it once, take the chance......you'll find you can't stop
doing it, hehehehehehe

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Tuesday 27th November 2001 15-40 CET
More Coincidences
On 6th November I wrote about coincidences. Well today I was reading one
of my favourite things on the web...Alastair Cooke's "Letter from America"
which is found on the BBC website (www.bbc.co.uk)
under world news section. Alastair Cooke is, I believe, in his early 90's now and has the
enviable record of the longest radio show...over 50 years now I think.
More especially, he is a very knowledgeable person and has been
'well connected' for a long time. He was asked to reprint the following
account of the 'Kennedy coincidences'..and added a little more:

"Lincoln was elected to Congress in 1846, Kennedy exactly one hundred years later in 1946.
Lincoln was elected president in November 1860, Kennedy in November 1960.
Lincoln had a secretary named Kennedy who urged him not to go to the theatre.
Kennedy had a secretary named Lincoln who advised against his going to Dallas.
Booth shot Lincoln in a theatre and ran off into a warehouse. Oswald shot Kennedy from a
warehouse and ran off into a theatre. Lincoln was succeeded by a Southerner named Johnson.
Kennedy was succeeded by a Southerner named Johnson. The first Johnson was born
in 1808, the second in 1908.

Well no soothsayer has helped (to explain these 'coincidences').
I have, however, a favourite theologian - my only favourite theologian - Dr Frederick Buechner.
He has written, among many books, a small book called An Alphabet of Grace - his ideas
about the pervasion of what he calls the grace of God are wide and ranging, funny and imagination
and may amuse or enlighten the irreligious as well as the devout. Under C we find "coincidence".
Here it is."I see in a letter the name of a woman I haven't seen or thought of for 20 years,
next morning I run into her in a grocery store in our town.
"I look out the window, a solitary car passes, its licence plate combines my initials
and those of my wife. We chuckle. "Perhaps somebody is saying, 'Stay the course'.
Somebody may keep reminding you that they have you in mind."


Alastair Cooke: Letter from America: BBC website: 27th November 2001

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Saturday 24th November 2001 22-30 CET
Enigmas
Been to a party recently? Did you 'circulate'? Notice how when you
were introduced to people, or they to you, it was usually "Hi George, this
is Frank, he's an accountant" or "Hi, how are you? What do you do for
a living?".

You know the sort of thing, huh?

Fifty years ago when people did not have quite the economic freedoms
we have in the west today, what a man - or woman - did for their job
actually had little bearing on what sort of a person they were. They did
their job for the economic necessity of it.
Today, we have much more choice, much more freedom to 'develop our
inner potential", yet even that is not necessarily an indicator of why
someone does the job they do. For example, Frank - the accountant -
may simply be a very steady, home-loving guy who believes in the
preciousness of family. He may be bored to tears with his job as
an accountant - pushing figures across pages - but wants a 'steady
secure scenario' so his wife and children can benefit to the utmost
from his sense of security and balance (hmmm. excuse the pun, hehehe).
Of course, Frank could also be a real fantasy - his work is just a cover
for the fact that he's so arrogant and self-assured - he's embezzling
millions from his clients. (With apologies to any Franks who may be
reading this, as frank is just an 'example' name for this illustration)

Knowing what a person does hardly tells us anything about who the
person is. Huh? There are other aspects, qualities that tell us much more.
Honesty, integrity, warmth of personality...such things as these.

Maybe you would know much more about the 'Frank' above if
you were one of his clients. You would 'know him' better...know the
other aspects of his existence that make him who he really is. The fact
that he won't cheat on you, for example. Or Jack the policeman, the fact that
he's never impatient or unfair, he never treats anyone any different from another
person.

Spiritually speaking, we do not define ourselves by what we are...be it teacher,
preacher, guru, disciple, etc.etc. We are defined by what we are not! We define
ourselves by what we are not, huh?

At the WTC there were many, many professionals - firemen, police,
rescue service personnel, Office workers, tradesmen and women,
many who simply could not stand idly by and watch their fellow human beings
suffer. Their first instinct, spiritual motivation, was to help and try to save others
....because they were not people who could live with themselves if they did
not do so. They could not love themselves if that love did not reach out
to others.

The terrorists who perpetrated this 'offence against humanity' were not
merciful, were not humane, were not loving. There are some that may
applaud their 'dedication', some that may think them' courageous', some that
may feel that such actions served some noble purpose...yet no purpose
can be noble that speaks of hatred.

We define ourselves by what we are not.....not by what we appear to be.

Furthermore, we can re-define ourselves at every single moment of this
life's experiencing thus enlarging our own spiritual self-awareness.

It is the enigma of the spiritual life and the 'life experiencing reality of
this existing'. There is far more of the iceberg hidden than is seen....
and it starts to be seen as life's experiences recycle the ice into
an ocean of lovingness.

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18th November 2001 22-30 CET
Tickets please!
Ever had that situation where you were going on a journey and
you packed so much stuff your suitcase was almost as heavy as you?

Or that situation where you had heard so much about a place from
others you thought you better visit too?

All that preparation, all that planning, all that excitement, all that
humping the case around?

When you get there you find you don't need most of the stuff in the
suitcase, huh? Or that the place wasn't quite what you'd imagined it to be,
huh?

Well, I got this feeling about 'eschatology'¨( a word from the Greek
eskhatos meaning last and generally used by theologians/religious
students to refer to "The Doctrine of death, judgement, heaven, hell")
that it's kinda like the suitcase and the anticipated 'place to visit'.

Many religions seem to feel the need to either promise us everything we
can dream of (providing we have 'pure' dreams, pure being by their definition)
in the 'afterlife' or to tell us that we are 'working off our karma from previous lives
in this life'. Either way we get the old..and I mean old....guilt/sin/shame equation,
don't we, huh? Now these images, allegories, mini-concepts were fine a
thousand or so years ago. Maybe even a hundred years ago.
They conveyed a message that urged people to look beyond the immmediacy
of their 'physical senses'. But to pursue such intransigent ideas today is to limit
the unconditionality of 'the lovingness'.

Well, how's about we came into this life experience for the sheer 'fun of it',
for the pleasure of the experiencing of even the pain of the experiencing -
for, spiritually speaking, these two imposters are the same, two sides of
the same equation, both are necessary for the equation to function ?

Do we really need to hear that we will be punished, in some life or another,
for not being as 'God dictates we must be' ? For that very statement is
a denial of the lovingness that birthed us with the precious gift of
'free choice in this life'.

Indeed, such heaven/hell/karma/judgment types of eschatology really
don't have a place in the 'lovingness of the Oneness'.

By definition - though it's sometimes hard for us to accept when we
see some of the terrible things that occur in this world - by definition...
Infinite Love is infinitely UNconditional.

Except.....oh there's gotta be an 'except' hasn't there - if you really love
someone you never, ever seek to hurt them in any way whatsoever.
If, in your need; if in your human-ness, you do hurt them...don't you
soon know it, deep inside? And who does it hurt most?

When we are less than we know we are......we hurt ourselves most, huh?
Hmmm... we can even do that when we pretend to be more than we really
are, hehehe.

I have seen that it's better to leave the theological baggage behind, instead
of humping all that heavy weight around. I have found it's better to enjoy
the 'now' of this journey than to loose all the experience of the wonderful
'spiritual scenery'' that's here by anticipating some destination in the
future.

That's just my view...but, hey, you got your own pathway to travel,
your own scenery to view, huh? :):) You got your ticket....first class..
first class lovingness. :):)

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