Thursday, December 06, 2001

6th December 2001 15-00 hrs CET
Unwelcome guests?
When 'surprise attacked' by apparently overwhelming horror
or threat it is normal for most of us to revert to the amygdala
'fight or flight' mechanism.This mechanism, as I understand it,
is a kind of 'intuitive library' genetically coded through the
ages of mankind.

The raised hairs on the back of the neck, the heightened
'awareness', the increased adrenalin-fuelled metabolism
all conspire to tell us that 'fear' has entered our
self-preservation instinct programme and become

It comes as a welcome guest ,complete, hopefully, with an
overnight bag. It offers a degree of security and sense of
pre-warned stability. It is not an army, but has control of one.

However, when fear enters our domain carrying a load of
luggage/suitcases then we have reason to fear fear itself.

For fear likes luxury. It likes to impress us with the trappings
of it's power.We can soon be enchanted by such power, especailly
if our own egos crave such power ourselves. It enjoys travelling
with an absolute mass of suitcases and a large entourage of staff.
In this scenario fear brings with it hatred, prejudice, intolerance..
main staff members. Why, it even brings it's own gardener complete
with a gruesome chain saw with which it 'prunes' the roots of our logic,
our morality, our sense of justice and freedom....until the spiritual
tree of 'the self' trembles precariously in a wind of terror-inspired

Notice the cleverness of the tactic. Don't attack the trunk of the tree
(well, unless you're a beaver who is especially equipped for that, huh?)
for that is hard to do unobserved. Rather seek the roots that hold
the mighty form aloft. Little by little the roots break away and when
they are all but totally gone...then we are hostage, completely, to fear as
our form trembles in the storms that threaten our very existence.

This is, essentially, the process of indoctrination. In terms of 'religious
or political conversion' it is very adequately documented......increase the
threat of annihilation, increase the awareness of mortality and pain, increase
the definitions of 'sin/guilt'...disorientate the subject by deprivation techniques
(whether physical, psychological or both) until an abreactive point
is reached (a point of fear inspired nervous collapse)...and then, bingo!
The subject rejects those 'root standards' that have been the cause
of all this 'terror'...and accepts a new codus that promises relief, peace
and heavenly tranquility based upon adherence to the new codus. Better
to fly in the clouds of illusion than tremble in the reality...huh?

Now, you, the individual have ceased to be individual. You have
become a 'groupie', a 'convert', a 'follower', etc.etc. You conform
to a doctrine of 'safety in numbers'.

All out of the opposite to Love...fear! Worst of all, you have sacrificed
self respect in the process and, accordingly, afford no others respect.

It is not a rule, nor a codus, nor a pre-condition to 'being in the lovingness
of the Oneness' that you, YOU, cease to be what you have been created to UNconditionally loved individualised aspect of the 'Oneness'.

In the final analysis this is where fear loses the battle, the war. For fear
has nothing in it's armoury with which it can fight the supremacy of

When unwelcome guests overstay their 'welcome' have a
wonderful opportunity to embrace them 'in the lovingness'. By being
fully your true spiritual self you make a friend of an enemy, an enemy
that first visited posing as a friend. By showing love in the face of hatred,
Love in the face of prejudice, Love in the face of intolerance... we
absorb those energies and transmute them.

For we all invite into our 'spirit' that which is necessary for us to
experience the fullest possible experiencing of who we truly are.
Rooted in the 'Oneness' we blossom with lovingness.

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Monday, December 03, 2001

Sunday 2nd December 2001 23-30 CET
We do so love to be organised, plan things out, schedule our lives.
It reassures us to feel that we 'are in control'. That's fair enough,
in many ways...especially spiritually...we are in control. In reality,
(well in this reality we call 'the life experience'), even when we
are surrounded by chaos...when life seems to bear down upon us
with a million problems...when our emotions are torn and
bleeding from the sheer stress of 'trying to hang in there'..we
are far more in control than we can consciously acknowledge.

The 'chaos' is a means of experiencing, huh?

So let's just examine this 'chaos' for a moment or two.
Generally speaking 'chaos' is the pre-condition to creativity.
If an artist sees only one image on a canvas, if a musician
only hears one tune in his/her head, if we only can perceive
one scenario in our conscious state....our subconscious
quickly alerts us to a mass of other possibilities - in dreams,
day-dreams, angst, and a lot of other methodologies.

Soon our 'single minded perception' fragments under a
burden of 'chaotic conceptualities'. The underlying scenario,
the deep inner awareness, is fairly simple actually. We are
challenged by a life circumstance to accept a situation which
we find unacceptable. That's the opening of the door for
the force of chaos to enter in. Yet, go a little deeper and
you soon find that most, if not all, of the chaos is
'self generated'.

You see, I am a committed believer in the concept that,
at least on a personal life level, a problem is simply a
solution awaiting it's time of birth. We set our sub-conscious
a problem and it's starts - like some super-computer generating
terrabytes of data - permutating possibilities. Indeed, most of
this 'chaotic broadbanded activity' is actually occurring before
we have consciously recognised any problem. By the time
we start acknowledging a problem consciously, the creative
chaos is already well advanced within us. It's like our
sub-c was aware of a potential problem long before we
were consciously aware of it, huh?

Chaos is the pre-condition for creativity! Creativity is our
natural 'in the Oneness' state. We all are incredibly productive
'creation machines'. We are producing, all the time and in
in amazing ways, scenarios that enable our wider experiencing
of the: realisation of concepts : the sensing of materialised
experiencing : methodologies by which we define who we are
and thus enable ourselves to see ourselves - know who and
what we are.

'Chaos' is the raw material of creativity. 'Chaos' is the 'mud of
materialisation'. 'Chaos' - mental, emotional, psychological,-
is the first indicator that we are busy creating!!!!

Chaos is not a is THE blessing :):)

So let's not get swept away by the storms of 'chaos' that
we seem to observe occurring within us as we struggle to
find a methodology of 'acceptance' of a specific life scenario.
Simply trust the your own innermost motivations.
Trust that you only have a 'problem' because you are a 'spiritual
entity that is seeking to experience concepts- concepts you already
knew before you came into this life's walk - in a material environment. are seeking to be what you know you are...and to experience the
being instead of just the knowing.'

Next time you feel pressured...stressed....uncomfortable with a life
scenario....lacking in self confidence........
trust the chaotic feelings that are whirling around inside of you.
That is a wind of creative change that will manifest itself in a
scenario that will permit you to modify, adjust to, moderate or
accept that circumstance which first created the awareness
of a problem within you. We can 'create a way out of any

Chaos gives birth to creativity: through that creativity we define
ourselves. Problems are simply solutions awaiting their time of birth.
If we can perceive a problem consciously, we are already working with
it subconsciously and spiritually. We must be, or we couldn't perceive it.
You don't have a problem unless and until you recognise you have a
problem, huh? The methodolgies for resolving problems are as
innumerable as raindrops...and like snowflakes, each one is

"Inner chaos" is not an enemy...rather it is a welcome and precious
friend. When you cannot find chaos inside anymore, you have
ceased to be willing to experiment with the 'life experiencing'.

The chaos is simply a mechanism for allowing you to be you...
and to know yourself better :):)

Hmmm..and on a totally different subject...I am told that the
human body is over 80% how come we can stand up?
Or how come, when we go swimming,...............heehehehehehe :)

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